Has their ever been someone you were so smitten with, but there was no way in hell you could ever hook up? Now, i am not talking about a sheep or a young person, i think that is wrong. I am talking about two people of the same species, mature enough to choose their own sexual partners.
I have the BIGGEST crush on someone right now. If they acknowledge i exist, I get giddy. I have had many dreams about them, and wake up more in love. But alas, we can never consummate our lust.
We are both in serious relationships. So i tell myself, it's okay to daydream that we might someday let our emotions go crazy and ravish each other....but all that does is make me all the more frustrated.
Because i am just reminded of the fact that the hot crazy sex i was imagining will never come to fruition.
and the stupidest part is that because of our relationship, i doubt they have had the same thoughts that i have. And if they have had such thoughts, i most likely will never find out. So, how do i get over this obsession i have developed? Is there some kind of twelve step program that i can join? It didn't help me with alcohol, but i would be willing to give it a try anyway. I want to be released from the relentless yearning!
I would like to move on with my life. But as of now I cannot.
Maybe i'll take up smoking.